I bet you thinking oh, gee another lonely person.. oh well who gives a crap

but you know what?
Monico and me are going out again
but I have this weird empty feeling inside.

It's like my mind's telling me:
Jessica, things won't ever be the same again.

Why am i thinking this?
Well, when I was single I did have the pang that Monico was done with me,
but i still had more fun.

I became better friends with guys,
because i wasn't scared that someone would go tattle to monico saying:
Jessica is flirting again. Kill her.

But now I just feel like I'm missing out on people who could be great friends,
because i'm dating.

What's gonna happen now?
I do really really like Monico.. but idk
things are starting to happen again and i'm just about to give up.