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Monday, February 19, 2007

Mon, 19 Feb 2007 21:05:28 GMT

goodnight, SweetHeart.

it's my turn to move on.

Saturday, December 02, 2006

Sat, 02 Dec 2006 17:41:50 GMT

I bet you thinking oh, gee another lonely person.. oh well who gives a crap

but you know what?
Monico and me are going out again
but I have this weird empty feeling inside.

It's like my mind's telling me:
Jessica, things won't ever be the same again.

Why am i thinking this?
Well, when I was single I did have the pang that Monico was ~~done with me~~,
but i still had more fun.

I became better friends with guys,
because i wasn't scared that someone would go tattle to monico saying:
Jessica is flirting again. Kill her.

But now I just feel like I'm missing out on people who could be great friends,
because i'm dating.

What's gonna happen now?
I do really really like Monico.. but idk
things are starting to happen again and i'm just about to give up.

Saturday, November 11, 2006

Sat, 11 Nov 2006 00:38:07 GMT

Wow.

In just this small amount of time...

things change.

Monico and me.. have ended. I suppose it was about time..
I've also learned how many friends I actually have...which is not many.

Sad, but true

So anyone, if you know how to heal a girl with ~~limited friends~~ and a broken heart, tell me...

cause i can't live too long.

Thursday, October 19, 2006

Thu, 19 Oct 2006 23:12:55 GMT

hehe... a smile orgasm...

ok well.. i suppose i should update on the current events of my particularly boring life...

i Have managed to keep a ~~boyfriend~~ for over a month...Go me right?
It seems we grow closer everyday... at least in my view.

Well... Life ~~outside~~ of school is good..

Life inside.. is okay...

(I just found out that this weird (gayish) guy likes me... ewwww...)

Ok goofy story of the day...

In Art class our teacher was just blabbering away so me and my friend Larel..or w.e ... were ~~kinda passing notes.~~ like i would show her a piece of paper that had stuff on it. She passed me a note that had some personal stuff on it (to ~~her~~ anyways) and i was passing it back when the teacher saw me..
"Jessica, WHAT are you Doing?"

"Uhh.. nothing..."

"ok, just put that on my desk"

"ok..."

But, ah ha... i had another trick up my sleve...
i switched the notes to the paper i was just writing on and showing people my message...

she didn't even notice...

~~LOL!!~~

well enjoy,
Jessica

Monday, September 25, 2006

Mon, 25 Sep 2006 23:26:32 GMT

Fall is here! No time for shorts, or skorts.
'Cause pants have made the final push tward ~~popularity~~ durring the chilling weather.

Well School is actually doing okay. Me, and monico.. are together now (<33) and we're good. We're just fine and dandy; two people who match incredibly well. Imagine that. And the only thing that's actually going wrong is that 2 people have made it their total humanly purpose to break us up for their own selfesh desires.

Blah.

Well, I suppose that's ~~all~~ for now..

ttyl

Jess

Sunday, September 10, 2006

Sun, 10 Sep 2006 17:37:31 GMT

well...life's okay i suppose. Just at the moment i'm struggling in ~~liking~~ someone so completely that they are inside my head 24/7 but i'm trying to get over that i cannot possibly ever go out with them. ~~Why~~ do i put myself in these situations? Sometimes i think the attraction girls have to guy (and visa versa) can be almost like a curse.

W.e

I really don't have much to say... life's been petty boring lately.

so i guess i'll say ttyl

from ova here in good old..p town lol

L8R

Jess*

Friday, September 01, 2006

Fri, 01 Sep 2006 22:35:03 GMT

(about statement: it's SO true!)

Anywho. I felt like using my freetime on a Friday night to write in my blog. (then i'm gonna read this really good book called Twilight..)

ok so school's going..okay for me i suppose.

To explain:

I said yes to Jacob, because now, i realized, that i only did that searching for happyness and a sense that someone loved me. I was boyfriend sick i suppose. But, as usual, already i am fealing uncertinitys. It's going to be over Tuesday. I promise that.

Oh, and i have some personal feelings about two guys that i will not share online because-now-i'm smarter then that.

Ok uhh... to Marissa, Jamie, and Audra. I hope for you guys, this is a repeat of last year and that maybe it will teach you guys a lesson. And to let you know.. this year i'm not going to be included in the disastorous events that came to be last year...for i have learned the lesson you ladies shall have to be re-taught. For something: GOSSIP IS NOT THE ANSWER TO EVERYTHING. oh and you know what? any comment on here that like a hate-comment from any of you, will be deleted (just like jamie's comment). My reasoning for this is: any of those things you say on here; i know you won't (and haven't) said them to my face, so therefore, you don't really have the guts to... so they don't really count. AND they won't effect me. Oh, and if you guys are thinking this is a hate comment...ask me about it at school.. and i will tell you it personally. You have me word on that one.

So there, i hope you all are happy :)

Jessica </3

Saturday, August 26, 2006

Sat, 26 Aug 2006 20:25:40 GMT

ok well ...

sece school started...

1. i've found out anthony isn't that cute... i mean he's cute and all but he's not very brainy.

2. monico is still the freaky weirdo he used to be... and he still likes sluts...

3. Jacob t. is still the awsome guy he was last year..plus he asked me out...

for 3 day... 3 things... not bad huh?

oh yea.. i won't be able to get on as much because of school and volley.. i only have 5 hours home before i go to bed... and i can't be on the computer after 8 (my rule) so yea... ttyl

JESSI<3

Sunday, August 20, 2006

Sun, 20 Aug 2006 23:50:25 GMT

Have you ever been scared? What if I told you I'm scared to go back to school? What if I told you why?

Well I'm going to so .. hold tight.

Ok, I'm scared to go back to school because....I'm scared I'll like someone. Either someone I've gone out with or someone I haven't... I just scared.

Is this a normal occorence? Have you ever felt this too?
Sometimes I just need to stop being scared of the past or the future... but relize this is the present and nothing else matters. But funny thing... that's harder then it sounds.

It's hard because, I'm scared this year will be a repeat of last year..that I'll get caught simply kissing a guy.. and basically get banned from my diarys, from my best friends.. from enjoyment.

One person in particular..Monico.

I saw him Thursday... I called him because I felt i should.

I'm scared I'm going to fall for him in particular, yet again.

So, Monico, if you still read my xanga... I just want you to know..

My heart was too tender when we got together, and it still is now. If you still like me, fine. But I want you to know that I don't think i'm ready to even take on the trill of liking someone or better yet, dating. I.. I just don't know what else to say.I hope.. my entry.. explains why better...

oh.. yea... call me or tell me the first day of school if you read this.. monico please.

ok... well comment...

Jessica

Photos are here!!

Thu, 17 Aug 2006 13:40:34 GMT

well..I FINALLY have the picture here for you to see. Here they are, and if you need a refrence to who is who... check my last entry...

Andy <3

Jamie's face... she obvisouly was having a little fun with my camera... if you catch my drift

Jodie posing (yes she knew i was taking this picture)

Jordan :p

Josh... and Ben

some guy being buried in the sand to look pregnate (note the girl top right is cupping his sand boob lol)

Tawni and Danielle posing...

Trent walking back to his cabin.. the back of Andy's (<3) head, and Jamie in the yellow

Tawni ans Mandi

A very blury picture of Zach... but you can see him if you squint your eyes a little..
(btw his shirt says 'while you read this i have brief control over your mind' isn't that funny?)

Tawni and Danielle on the right (or bottom in this view)

soooo that was my BEAUTIFULcampfriends : )

Please comment...

oh and one more thing... if i don't get at least 5 comments... I won't put up my other pics from school and stuff on here so plz comment!!